3 things to be proud of.
What are you most proud of? Are you where your life map for your mid-30s was supposed to take you?
A strange fog of unmet expectations has loomed over me lately.
and instead of allowing it to distract me from the beautiful life I am living, I am blogging.
1: A Boy.
When Matix turned 5, he requested a robot dance party for his birthday. He danced to Beastie Boys "Intergalactic", Styx "Mr. Roboto, and Dan Mangan "Robots" and a ton of other great songs for three hours straight. (Soon after I wrote him the robot love song). That was 5 years ago, and the dance moves have only gotten more amazing. Max is growing into such a wonderful human, and I am so proud to be his mom. His head reaches my shoulders, and lately he slides right in for hugs so natural and easy. I feel him and see him on the cusp of adolescence, and I am so full of hope for him and his path. For Max's 10th birthday, we made this video together. I don't know why exactly I'm sharing it on my music blog, (its not my music, the sound track is the incomparable Nathaniel Rateliff), but this video definitely shows a huge chunk of who I am. and It is what I am most proud of, I have been a mother for one whole decade. I have learned a lot about myself, parenthood and partnerhood, and I know the next 10 years will continue to teach me.
and there's sure to be lots more dancing!!
2: A School.
We love our kids school for so many reasons; the faculty, the dual immersion and robotics programs, and especially the Fall dance festival.
This will be the 7th year we have attended. Max is dancing to Footloose, Rocko will be dancing to Rockin' Robin, and Gwen is a baby eagle flying high! Tonight will also be Max's final elementary performance. Its strange how quickly these 7 years have flown by. Lightning, I tell ya. (I remember his first preschool dance festival, his teacher requested the kids wear gloves, and I knew we had some, but I didn't try them on him till it was time to go, and they were tiny. His little hands could barely squeeze into them. I've been a frantic parent over silly things like this, but my kiddos have been gracious and forgiving of their space cadet mother.) Matix has only attended one school his whole elementary educational career and I am damn proud of that fact. It may not seem like a big feat, but for me, it has been. I had such a different experience. Bloomington, Sweetwater, Saguaro Ranch, Lindbergh, Patterson and Woodward were my elementary schools. I didn't mind the moving, but I think because of it, I have a restless soul disorder. Its a condition where I want to try all the things, and all the places, and find new houses, and friends. I find change refreshing and exciting. I want to drive new roads, and eat new foods, and I fight this urge to ramble on, pretty much everyday. Hopefully I'm getting better. Building the music barn will most certainly help (more posts about this to follow).
3: A Hometown.
My kids are growing up in Hurricane, Utah. We love this little town. We are right outside 3 National parks (Bryce, Zion and The north rim of The Grand Canyon), completely surrounded by the most gorgeous country on Gods color-canyoned Earth. New hotels are popping up like wildflowers, and I am excited for others to experience and enjoy this area, also I want to play those folks my music. Since I am not a touring artist right now, lets bring more ears here! ;)
This weekend my family and I visited the Western Legacy Sleepy Hollow Farm and I performed for the Hurricane Aviation Day Celebration. We had such a wonderful time at each event. The people here are hard working, supportive of one another, creative, extremely talented, and adventurous, and I am honored to get to live in such a treasure of a community.
3 things to be proud of.
What are you most proud of? I'd love to read about your journeys and your joyful accomplishments. Please share in the comments. I found this writing quite therapeutic. Instead of focusing on the things I haven't done, I can look at the things I have done, and be proud of my time and energies well spent.